After watching his cohorts Joe Budden and Royce Da 5’9″ overcome their gruesome addictions, Slaughterhouse’s Kxng Crooked is the next to wash away his demons. On his new track “Too Ashamed,” featuring Iliana Eve and Mike Smith, the West Coast lyricist dishes out sheer candor regarding his alcohol addition.
“I’ve been sober of a year now/ But nah, I ain’t pretending my vision crystal clear now/ Cuz i can pick up a beer now/ And relapse, perhaps that’s my fear now,” raps Crooked.
For Crooked, being able to come to grips with his vicious addiction prolonged his life. “Me and alcohol have been in a dangerous relationship over the years,” he tells Billboard. “Under the influence I’ve done some things so out of character that I didn’t even recognize myself while I was doing them.”
In hopes of regaining his life, he sought change. “I decided to change my lifestyle, get sober and make amends with the people I hurt. I attend AA meetings sometimes and they help but ultimately music is my therapy so contributing to ‘Too Ashamed’ is part of my healing process,” he reveals. “This song deals with real life shit. Not the fake ‘everything is great’ facade most artists hide behind but the real life shit. I pray it connects with people battling addiction.”
Produced by Jonathan Hay and King Graint, the somber record finds Crooked and Hay in a better place after overcoming their arduous battles.
“Working on ‘Too Ashamed’ was a very emotional recording experience for everyone involved,” Hay explains to Billboard. “Kxng Crooked opened up for his first time about his alcoholism and recovery, which was a parallel experience shared with co-producers King Graint and Shachar Boussani who has seen friends struggle with addiction. Singer Mike Smith was feeling very ashamed spending so much time away from his wife and kids pursuing music. Iliana Eve and I were victims of a home invasion at the end of April and been dealing with the trauma from that which is heard in the song from a friend on my voicemail.”
“Too Ashamed” will live on the forthcoming compilation The Ashamed EP. Listen to the song below.